Everybody expects something from you. It's hard to live up to their expectations, but it's even harder to be happy. 

I hate it when I'm being so bitchy and emo, especially at such hour.

Guess I haven't changed much huh?

I've never really had much problems in getting friends presents. I either observe for months before the big day on what he/she likes or needs, or I just don't get them anything, till I'm sure of what to get. But usually I just hand-make something simple. Well, people usually like them (at least they look like they do) And I'd like to believe, it's not that hard to get me a present that I'll like too.

I don't ask much. As long as you remember to wish me, or maybe give me a hug and to spend some time with me, I'll be happy enough to stay at that state for a very long time. I dislike little hints and not getting it in the end. I hate disappointments. Like, tell me, who does?

I think I'm a very frank and straightforward person. I say I like something and it's usually obvious enough to be noticed, tho I know I sound like I like everything all the time. But isn't it even better? You get to pick one out of all those choices.

Or maybe you just want to make sure that I really like that thing before getting it, so that it won't go wasted. But I suggest that you be quick as you're not the only person who visits the store, ask earlier, and react faster. Cause I'm definitely going to be upset if I don't get it when I've already known what am I going to get.

And yes, I really was upset this morning. Part of me was blaming you for not asking and getting it weeks ago cause I know you know how much I loved it, and part of me was feeling so bitchy to even think so. I really shouldn't. I'm sorry for being so incapable of dealing with disappointments.

Also, I know this is a really f up way of telling you what's on my mind, maybe you won't even read it. But, I can't imagine myself telling you these stuff face to face. I'm afraid that I'd feel all cranky again and blurt words that I don't think anyone would want to listen. We all know how retarded I am when it comes to dealing with emotions. Urgh :(

I'm sorry.

I really don't want to hurt you nor our relationship, and I think that you deserve to know what's going on in my head. At least you'll have an idea of what to do next time.

Hmm.

Hope you don't get offended by whatever I said up there, and call me when you've read this, kay? (please please do T.T)

Thank you, and good night :)

Loves!

He asked,
do you have faith?

Then he said,
don't let go okay.


Baby's moving into nottingham uni tomorrow.
It's gonna be the long long far away distance thing again.
Hmm :(
Me dont like it. He'll be in some school far away, no me, 4th floor, outskirt.
Brrrrr.




Dear,
remember when i said my best friend's name and it wasn't you?
actually, it depends on how you define a 'best friend'
(at least its what i think :D)
but, it doesn't matter whether you're my best friend or not,
you're the special one to me.

# someone sho special, you have a class of your own. And i would definately keep you by my side :) it's like a one in a million thing, my lucky star :D

I love you Pit Pit,
May good things last.

♥

Even after so long, I still have trouble dealing with goodbyes. I miss you pit pit. If only you were here. #######   So, thinking skills on monday, merdeka day on tuesday, bio practical on wednesday, math on thursday, our 100th day on friday, then comes my 2weeks of break. Outings, meet ups, visits, please inform earlier. Kay? ;) looking forward to see all of you.                                      

If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade.

I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude,
It's tearing me apart, It's ruining everything.

I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.
So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong. I was wrong.
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

And I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Linger, The Cranberries ♥

Was searching for cranberries (as in the fruit) and found my long lost love- The Cranberries,

once upon a time, and now the love's rekindled.

Hold onto love that is what I do now that I've found you.
And from above everything's stinking, they're not around you.

And in the night, I could be helpless,
I could be lonely, sleeping without you.

And in the day, everything's complex,
There's nothing simple, when I'm not around you.

But I'll miss you when you're gone, that is what I do. Hey, baby!
And it's going to carry on, that is what I do. Hey, baby...

Hold onto my hands, I feel I'm sinking, sinking without you.
And to my mind, everything's stinking, stinking without you.

And in the night, I could be helpless,
I could be lonely, sleeping without you.

And in the day, everything's complex,
There's nothing simple, when I'm not around you.

But I'll miss you when you're gone, that is what I do. Hey, baby!
And it's going to carry on, that is what I do. hey, baby...

When You're Gone, Cranberries ♥

what a morning T.T

first i woke up late,
then i forgotten to bring all of the stuffs needed for today (urghhh)
couldn't get parking nearby col so i parked somewhere AFTER the market
walked til AC only i realized that i left my phone in the car n walked ALL THE WAY BACK.
wtf wtf wtf wtf.
was omfg sweating like shit and aih.
i missed LAN class :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
attendance..........




anyhoo, baby's coming to town today! woot!
time to cheer up and smile! :):)

happy schooling people!

live for the moment and know that everything happens for a reason.